These days I feel more than ever I am called to release the suffering of a long long time.
Personal and collective.
As a pisces Sun I have been susceptible to linger to pain for long periods of time- holding into the collective suffering, making it my own.
Depression has been my dearest friend for years and years.
Amidst all the challenges we are going through as a species, I am experiencing moments of Grace, Joy and Ecstasy without apparent cause.
My tears have been coming back every day.
But not the suffering.
My pain has turned into a sensual dance.
A lover’s song.
A devotional prayer.
It moves me from within.
It intoxicates my senses.
It takes me by the waist and swings me gently or shakes me vigorously until no-thing remains of me.
Until my shame and guilt leave this dance.
Until only the Dance remains.
And a deep deep sense of Awe.
A deep Wonder to the Mystery of Life.
A Love, vaster than Life itself.